Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Thomas Butler
Thomas Butler

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